i love shopping. or rather, i love getting new clothes. there's something about finding new clothes that feel like me--that match my style and my personality--that makes me happy. so much so that occasionally i indulge in a bit of retail therapy. last fall for instance, i had a particularly bad day one friday. and after breaking down in tears at work (fortunately work is in the home of a woman i consider a friend), i decided i'd splurge and buy the $50 cardigan sweater i'd been wanting. and it helped, even if it didn't solve the problem.
last saturday my parents gave me some money and told me to go buy something new for church. you can imagine my frustration when i exhausted every option at the mall without finding anything. so i made the trek up the freeway to the j.c. penney where i found not one, but two new skirts with shirts to go with them. and then i hit a nordstrom's rack where i found a pair of orange, blue and white plaid ballet slipper shoes. those shoes make me happy every time i look at them--and they make me think of two of my favorite people whose style i love.
i feel kind of bad that i like shopping and new clothes so much. i don't want to support industries that i know use underpaid (and that's probably a gross understatement) labor. and obsession with possessions and acquisition really bothers me. i do keep my taste for shopping in control. saturday was the first time i'd gone shopping (as opposed to running an errand for a specific purpose) in months. and it was the first time i'd spent more than about $20 on clothing since that yucky friday afternoon last november (and even these small purchases have been very few and far between). i also refuse to spend the kind of money on clothing that so many stores in this area ask. those things make me feel a bit better about myself. but still.
and while i'm in confessional mode, i suppose i should get it off my chest that i once confused the mama's and the papa's for the beatles (i know, i know--sacrilege), i detest ketchup (totally unamerican of me), and i occasionally eat at--and enjoy--chain restaurants.